on Sabira's diary??

Monday, March 31, 2008

** Happening siah **

2:59 PM

I woke up kinda early.

thanks to the sunlight.

after taking my morning shower.

Dad put his bird in the bathtub to dry off.haha.

so cute.

all set to go Tanjung Pelepas.

weee!!told her before that she need some eyeliner.
so pale!

feeling all happy!

as usual.

sabina's always there.

so after we ate,we watched people karaoke first.

and there's this uncle,who can't stop dancing while singing.
hahaha.

waiting for our turn to sing.

the lovely sea.

we went for dinner at Tampines.

and Sabina wanted pics to show her unsharp nose.

hahaha.

the BIG bandung!
i enjoyed myself today.
singing Dangdut duets with my uncle on the sea,
it's just TERRIFIC baby.

and now i'm tired.

GOODNYTES!

**((Jaage jaage rehte hoon))**

Sunday, March 30, 2008

** Class List Retrieval **

1:31 AM

Actually i was kinda afraid to check it out.

But then,thinking back,it won't be a harm right?

haha.aniwaes,just go this website,for RP students.

http://photo.yandao.com/

You guys will have to sign up,and then WALAH!

Your new classmates faces will appear right there.

Cool right?haha.

So yeah.

I'm shocked cum excited.

Shocked cos i can't believe that i know at least 3

persons in my new class.

To mention them,they are,Fana,Faaiz & Qaiyum.

Lucky i met the guys at the SHL camp last year.

And Fana had been my clique back then in sec sch.

woah.this means that,i won't be shy2 on the first day

of school.

I just wanna walk in class feeling confident!!aha!

Yeah that's the reason for my excitement.

I cant wait to mingle since there's lots of Malay peeps

there.

First time man.

and HEY! i'm not racist la.

It's just my first time liao,since i've been in RP.

wooohooo!!!

oh how can i forgot about my class!

it's E54L.

DAMN!i'll have trouble rushing man!

so far inside.

and how cool eh.

In 3 semesters,my class dropped a level each time.

From level 6 to 5 to 4 now.

haha

ok i need to shit.

URGENT!!

**((Kabhi alvida naa kehna))**

Saturday, March 29, 2008

** ISLAM AND I **

12:15 PM

I'm not here to blabber nonsensical nuisance here.
But there's a sudden urge of typing this post in.
It all came from the moment i ended my afternoon prayers.

I'm just gonna talk about my view of Islam.
The traits that's currently in me,
and how i want to pursue being a good Muslim.

Firstly,i'm trying best to accomplish all 5 prayers done per day.
I'm quite sad though cos the morning prayer has always been a problem for me,
unless i wake up for school.
To complete 5 prayers a day,it means alot to me.
To miss any one of them,made me feel sinful.

Secondly,fasting wasn't much of a problem.
Cos definitely i have to wake up early to eat,
so morning prayers won't be missed.
However it's the thoughts that count.
When fasting,one have to be sincere.
And that's a hard one especially when there's nothing to show
or prove that your fast had been accepted by God.

Thirdly,talking about covering the head.
Well,i guess this is a cycle in every Muslim girls' life.
For me,i used to wear it permanently.
I don't think it's something that i should be ashamed of.
But after being exposed to too much on the outside world,
i left it for good.
Cos i know,when i wore it,it's just because i wouldn't want to disappoint
my parents.(after coming back from pilgrimage)
But i understand everything now,there's no use forcing oneself,
cos by wearing a hijab,one should be sincere too.
And i know,one day i will wear it permanently.
I'm just waiting for the time when God open my heart and soul to
accept how i should be behaving at that point of time.
There will definitely be a time when i feel that it's inappropriate to
wear jeans,to show my hair,and all those tight stuffs should be left
aside for good.
The time will come eventually,but i won't know when.

As for now,i heed advices and take actions.
When a friend told me that piercings on the nose or belly is haram,
i vowed that i won't pierce again.
These changes takes time.
But i'm looking forward to it.

But all this doesn't mean that you can go around criticizing others
about prayers,clothings,behaviours regarding alcoholic drinks etc.
Different people will have different timing of realisation.
It depends on their situation.
Some people changed after a death of a loved one occurs.
Some might change cos they need a new light in life.
Some will change after an impactful event occur to them.
See...too much to elaborate now.

I'm not here to open any Muslims' hearts out there.
I just want this post as a prove of my stand in Islam.
And i'm going to work better off from here.
Assalammualaikum.
i hope i don't sound too serious though=D

**((Sada khush raho tum dua hai hamari))**

Friday, March 28, 2008

** Happy Tararumpum Day **

12:27 PM

As beautiful as the sky,

i do want to keep the relationship going,

just like that.

Feelings are feelings.

I'm yet to feel it yet from his side.

I've done my best to provide,

and i'm hoping for nothing in return.

It sounds like a sad story yeah,

but at least i can sense the humour

in him.

That's the thing that's keeping us going.

I'm sure a meeting soon will

be great.

But i've promised,..

i'm not gonna be the one making the calls.

Cos i don't want to disturb him.

God's there as always.

And i've always prayed.

Only HE knows what i wished for.

Amin.

**((Dono mujhko main to pagal hua))**

Thursday, March 27, 2008

** I feel for you too,my friend **

1:42 PM

I was taken aback by the bad news.

A friend of mine lost her father.

This kind of news always post

lots of questions on my mind.

Why?

What happened?

How is she?

I've went through it.

But her case is different

cos it's a sudden one.

Just be strong my friend,

Farah Amira:)

all of us are with you,

promise.

**((Tune mujhe pehchana nahi))**

Wednesday, March 26, 2008

**I WANNA BE A SIFE STUDENT!!**

1:33 PM

ahaaa..

basically i'm feeling a lil crazy over

the meeting just now.

It's gonna be a BIG presentation.

oh damn i'm super dead.

I'm all excited for it,

but hell i'll definitely be nervous.

i think this will only impact me

for a few days lah.

anyways.

Sabby woke up at 6am today.

and didnt sleep a wink after that.

met Fool and we went morning shopping.

Dom should be with us ah.

it was hell!!!!!

Saiful does alot of thinking man!!!

i'm like his whiny daughter,

while he taking his time to choose.

hahaha.

but nvm.

it's funny though.

thrilling lik crazy to see him crack his

brains off to buy stuff.

Currently i'm doing housework.

all nearly done.

except for hanging the wet clothes outside.

Sabina's fast asleep.

and im gonna help her iron her uniform,

and MAYBE

do her Malay informal letter.

yeah i missed malay.

and perhaps i just gt nothing to do.

so yeah help the tired sis.

although i myself is tired,

after happily karaoke-ing.hehe.

OFF I GO!!

**((Mera dil jis dil pe fida hai))**

Tuesday, March 25, 2008

**Hopes too high??**

2:24 PM

Currently i'm fighting for time to be with him.

I can't contribute much cos he's the busy one.

Everyday i woke up,

he's the first thing on my mind.

I'll quickly grab my hp to sms him something.

It can be anything.

Some lame stuffs,stupid poems yadayada.

And this crazy me,

my heart will beat faster waiting for his reply.

I've gotta be patient in waiting.

I'm used to that already,

so it's not quite a problem.

I smiled to myself,big smile ok,

when he said that he missed me.

It's a rare thing to hear from him,

but i'll sleep peacefully after that. =)

i missed him too.

alot.

I'm just thankful to God that

he's still him.

I don't want repetitions of the past.

Those awful moments.

But hell,thinking about what Dom said,

'what makes me think that it won't happen again?'

I'm hurting myself over and over again.

I'm in my right senses don't worry.

When the love's too big,

nothing can be a hindrance.

Now in Muni's thought,

'i can't keep up too high a hope'.

Yes,i'm aware of that.

But the thing is,

i trust him,

and i don't wanna lose him.

never.

**((Mere jeevan sathi))**

Monday, March 24, 2008

**My babies came to visit=)**

1:50 PM

woke up kinda early today.

and saw my 1st bro cleaning his room.

haha.

he even offered to pay my sis if she help him.

my Snowy picnic-ing.

she came near when i called her.

and then my babies came.!!

PLAYTIME!!!

trying hard to hang himself.

WALAH!!!
the crazy girl. oh my cutie baby.
the younger one.
WEEEEE!!!!
hehe.
happy him!
thinking baby.
enjoying our playtime.
through the hole.
Fadhil still there.
the lost baby.
through the hole again.
don't mind my look.
the girl with loooooong hair.
that's not gonna be me in future ok. hide-and-seek
mother and son.
oh my BABY!
the big turtle/tortoise.PEI-PEI!
on the window.
karaoke-ing.
with milk. HAPPY!
him and the bear.
sunny pic.
lovely!
my fav one! again.
and again.
ok he's gone.
haha.still gt time.
love this one. playing with Tooky!
brought him out on a ride.
and the younger one joined in.
with them=)
byebye!!

**((Tum huye meherbaan))**