on Sabira's diary??

Friday, October 31, 2008

** Welcome my cramps! **

2:59 PM

I know it's been long since i have a proper update here.

Have been coming home late everyday.

Yes i AM tired.

So here's a better update.

First stop,

i would like to wish my siao cha mat fren a BIG BIG happy birthday!

Feeling feeling couple je si Qaiyum ni.

Podah!

May you grow more healthy feathers in this lovely year.

Wish a beautiful bird captures your heart soon.

*Raising my eyebrows*

Woke up early to rush through understanding my PP.

For the first time,i applied something to my hair.

But it's too hard man.

Look at that!
So i straighten it out.

Better??

And so...
I'm happy to announce that finally!,one burden is off the colar.
Goodbye PP.

Please don't ever come back.

I don't care about the grading at all.
It's not bothering me in any way.

And that pregnant faci who was trying to give me hell,argggh!

I hate you!

Look at what they do when they have nothing better to do.

Dancing????

Weird camp i can say.

I was watching them all while waiting for Ayu & Faaiz.

The cameramans are all around man.

And so after all are done,we had Mee Soto AGAIN at the coffeeshop.
Then off we went to Lavender.

Talk talk talk talk talk and Ayu went to meet her bf.

Faaiz & me lepak-ed around.

And in the end we felt hungry.

So we hunt for food.

His Mee Hongkong.

My Nasi Goreng Pattaya.

Will never ever quit smoking i guess.

Haha.

Then i took bus 12 home.

A 1 hour ride.

Pretty used to it by now.
The ride could have been better if i fall asleep.

But the damn the lights are too bright.

And i was observing all those people around me.

Some seriously have attitude problem.

Some don't seem to have a life.

And some like this....

I was sitting at the center at the back.And not 1,but 3 women did just that.

HOW DISGUSTING AND HUMILIATING!

And then there was this guy who wanted the seat.When the women put their feets down,he do that 'clean off germs' action on both seats.Hahahahahahhaa.Now that's funny!

My cramps are here.Bye.

Thursday, October 30, 2008

** Kuch hua **

2:59 PM

Something crazy happened today.

Just between us-es.

Don't feel like elaborating much.

but hell,

I LOVE PARKING!!!

Wednesday, October 29, 2008

** Thanks all. **

2:59 PM

I don't know why i'm thanking people now.

I'm just glad that i have good friends that i have right now.

Thanks all for helping me in anything.

Thank you Saiful for helping me with my poster.

Thank you Faaiz for being there all the time.

Thank you Ayu for being irritating around me.

Thank you Qaiyum for m.i.a-ing.

Thank you Sathya for a start of a new friendship.

Now who else?

Ok the rest shouldn't be offended.

I'm just thanking those whom i saw today.

Bye.

Tuesday, October 28, 2008

** Today... 8th Pract **

12:29 PM

This day will always be kept close to my heart,
No one can take it away no matter what.
He might be enjoying his life now but,
I'm still stagnant,not sure how to start.
I'd been hurt badly,she'd been hurt badly too.
The same thing happened to my cousin.
A relationship of 6 years goes down the drain in a simple sms.
Sounds cliche ain't it?
She cried like crazy,just like I did.
See,girls are way too devoted.
Guys are just physically there and at the end of the day,
they'll be honest,saying that they somewhat lost it.
My heart was raging about this once-a-special-day.
It's useless,like what he said.
I wasn't even thinking of it but it's just there,lurking in my mind.
I thought i'd sleep a peaceful one with dreams of my current life.
But he came back.
He was there,with me.
God,how can I ever move on?
I guess i'm sounding like Charlene now,except that mine's not dead.
='(
I'm still contemplating.
Should i open that box to relish those memories?
Or should i just leave it there to collect dust?
There's just too much to see.
We'd exchanged pretty stuffs all along.
I still keep a dry piece of the rose he gave.
That lil black diary that i wrote about him.
Guess it's all rusty with no more words forming inside.
I know where i kept it and i chose to ignore my awareness.
Damn i'm missing all of that.
So much.

Nothing's that fun anymore.
I can say that i'm a freaking lonely girl.

My driving totally sucks today cos i just couldn't concentrate on this day.

I walked the busy streets alone,still thinking of where i'd gone wrong.Crying out the tears that had been kept deep in my heart when I past the the place where he left me crying all alone.It's still painful.It still is.

On a lighter note,my babies visited me today.

With a new haircut.
Damn they looked super naughty!

They were dancing to every little tune.
Weird kids.

See his naughty face.

My uncle is always dancing while singing.
Multi-tasker!

And yes i may look happy.
But seriously,i'm not.

God,only they can make me smile.

And some others.

They're too big now.
Gonna be my bestfrens soon.
I don't seem to feel old at any moment.
Even their sister which is younger than me can sit down quietly.
But not me.
I'll be running crazily around the house with them,laughing,jumping and beating each other.
Still young at heart huh?

Just a small gathering.

This is the kind of family i'm looking for.
I feel it.

That when they're gone,i feel loneliness all of a sudden.

As if there's no life at my house without their presence.

I somehow feel that Mum's around.
The babies are just so afraid when I bring to Mum's room.

They see something that i definitely can't.

And they'll run out immediately with that scared look on their faces.
Darna mat babies,she's my mother=)

Monday, October 27, 2008

** Kampung Pok celebration **

2:01 PM

Was supposed to be in Woodlands in the morning for PP.

But i overslept,and Saiful also overslept.

Haha.

And i slept all the way till afternoon.

After that,got ready to go PTP.

It's supposed to be a Hari Raya Open house by Shasya's cousin's wife's family there.

We had fun eventhough it was really humid.

And before reaching the main place,Dad ask me,

"you wanna drive?"

Hell i was smiling like crazy.

That idiot sister of mine kept playing stupid faces at me when i look at the mirror.

Oh my God!

I just love driving for now,but not the bumpy roads there.
And so I drove to Kampung Pok.

We had lots of fun taking pics.
Running after the twins and all.

Those are the pictures we took.
No Raya clothes anws.
After that we all thought of just driving to nowhere.
And so we went straight ahead till we reach a restaurant.
We weren't even thinking of eating cos we just had our meals at the previous open house.
But the people in the restaurant invited us in.
Because....
they are having an open house TOO!!
So yeah the food's free.
I had mee soto and lots of drinks.
And HELL there's freaking lots of food.
I swear Muni will love it.

Eventhough we're like Singaporeans there,the Malaysians have got lots of integrity and respect for us.

They treated us so well.

And look at Baby Fadil up there.

He's trying to shit.

I can see that it's pretty painful for him.

Poor baby:(
My uncle thought of styaing there to relax.

Cos they were just starting to fix the karaoke system.

And by now,you all shud know that my family,both sides are crazy karaoke kings and queens.
But Cik Min wanted to go back.

So all of us went off.

Some crazy pics with the biggest idiot ever.

Had ice-cream at 2nd link.
I pity my poor dad.
Guess he's really ageing.

Firstly,he forgot to place his cashcard while the custom was chacking our passports.

And secondly,we weren't suppose to tailgate our Uncle.

My uncle called and ask why are we following him.

And so i cleared the situation for him.

I thought he understood me but he still followed my Uncle all the way till Ghim Moh.
My uncle laughed and asked why we're still behind him.

Then my dad said,

"My daughter ask me to follow you."

HAHAHAHAHA.

I went like what the hell!!!!!

But it was all good.

We went off to Adam Road to have yet another meal.

So here's my Mutton Chop.

I shared with my Aba.
Freaking delicious siah.

And as usual,had a long long talk.

After spending an hour eating,we stood at the carpark while listening to them talking about matters that i have heard for the zillion time.

All those family disputes.

Hell i'm tired of them.

And yes,Dad still shed tears when he rewind those sad sad days when Mum's around.

Poor dad.

I feel you:(

Alrighty,good nite all.

Sunday, October 26, 2008

** A typical Saturday i'm looking for **

10:46 AM

I know i know.

It's a day you guys usually hang out.

There's no one asking me out on a date.

There's just no one hinting me to have a day out with them.

Forget all that man.

The actual thing is i love my Saturday.

Wake up late,rushed on my RJ,prepare food,clean the house

and all ready to catch up with the life that i've missed.

TV programs,karaoke,eating home-cooked food,dancing.

Man how long i've not been doing all that.

I love this moment at home.

Running crazily outside of my house with a can of sardines in my hand when i hear a cat mew.

And yes i've found my skipping rope.

Suddenly i realised that i haven't been keeping up with my friends.

Nazi,Muni,Ama,Aisyah,Faizul,Izdiyad.

All these people.

I really don't know what's with me these days.

I know that i'm wrong to chuck them aside.

Especially my Nazi:(

I'm not sure why I'm doing all this.

It's not that i want to,but evrytime i feel like msging them,

my mind will think twice and always have this common answer which is,

'forget it'.

Yeah it's true i'm a bad friend.

I don't deserve to have any friend.

I just don't.

My life's just not good.

Saturday, October 25, 2008

** 7th Prac **

1:57 PM

Lucky i woke up in time for school.

Was already feeling the urge to shit while I ran for the bus.

Lucky the driver stopped for me to board.

Or not sure i late again.

And so all the buses i took are sooooo cold.

I was shivering like hell.

Plus the shitting pain in my tummy.

I walked as fast as i can to school,put my bag in class,

and OFF TO SHIT!

Nice morning exercise i've got here:D

And so today's leisure planning.

Wheelchair again just like the one in last sem.

But this is much more fun because every team has its own mission to do.

So before starting on our mission,all of us were gathering outside Koufu playing around with the wheelchairs.

Just take a look at the guys.

They were racing each other.

Siao cha mats & bengs!

As we were talking among ourselves,

suddenly we heard a soft cry.

It was Farhan.

He fell off his wheelchair.

I really wonder how it happened man.

Haha.

And yes the second fun part of today is,they love the bloody ramps.

They freaking look like retards man.

So before starting our mission,we have to get to the carpark first.

Poor Gary with his swollen leg.
Look at the picture.

He looked as if he's being despised by the people around him.

My team mates=)

And yes Elwin is sooooo mean to Farhan.
He let the wheelchair go after pulling it downwards.
And Farhan had a hard time getting up.

Haha.

Faaiz & Qaiyum kena present today.

Hahahahahhahaa.

Ayu didn't came.
And Mr & Miss SHL are Hafiz & Huda respectively.
I think the judges are all kayu ah.
I don't know why the two were chosen when there are others who are much more outstanding than them.

And hell the event is so boring that after the results was announced,everyone clapped and walked away at the same time.
BOO!
And sooooo UT was ok.
And we had a great bus trip together.
None of us was able to sleep except Din.
And hell we were freaking noisy!

And for today's practical,i learned how to do parallel parking.
Guess i was able to grasp it.
Man i'm glad!
Engine still died a few times but i know all the mistakes are just there.
And yea i'm definitely gonna work for that.
YES!!!!
Finally it's my holidays!

Wooohoooo.

It's slacking time baby.

I hope i didn't forget to mention anything.

See ya all!

Friday, October 24, 2008

** YOU know what day it is=) **

1:27 PM

You all wanna know something or not?

We sisters were hungry at 1am last nigt and decided to order Mc.

We were happily waiting when the main door to my house banged open as it hits the pillar.

Both of us went mum.

Neither did we go out to check out.

Haha.

Scary shit man.

I dozed off while waiting and when Sabina woke me up,the food's already there.

So there goes our late dinner.

Horrible!!

And right after eating,we slept.

Bloody pigs!!

When i woke up in the morning,i thought i'm gonna be early.

But hell the bus left me earlier when it's raining.

Poor me & Maisarah sat at the bus-stop for half an hour waiting for the next stupid,slow bus!

And yes!

Mc Spicy made me shit!

In the toilet,always...

Today,Grain didn't facilitate us.

Gun was there instead.

He's a pretty nice guy whom we can joke with without feeling awkward.

Had a pretty great time talking with my Chinese gang.

Talk about pork and all.

Real fun!

The ah beng in my class with the ah lian's ear stud.
Sorry Jessie!!

Hahahhaa.

Now don't scold me 'beina' or 'baichi' pls.

I pretty much missed writing and drawing.
The first picture on the left is what Faaiz wrote.
Bloody cheaters!

Qaiyum & him planned what questions to ask each other before the start of the presentations so that their well prepared with the answers beforehand.

And so the day ended shitty,

thanks to the UT.

Damn it rhymes!

Sports Law UT is seriously killing all of us man:(

And later in the evening,Faaiz,Ayu and me went to the coffeeshop to eat.

Funnily,Ayu & me were both addicted to the Mee Soto there.

We just couldn't stop sipping the soup no matter how spicy it is.

A few moments later,Ayu had a terrible headache.

She swallowed some panadols and fell asleep on the table.
At one moment,she woke up cos she thought it was raining.

Haha.

See,people ask to eat you don't want.
Ask your bf scold you then you know.

:P

And so i was all alone.
Faaiz ran to school cos he need to shit.
Ayu is already asleep.
There were 3 banglas behind me listening to many different kind of songs.
And i was seriously BORED!
So you shud know what i did next.
=)

Yeeeehaaaa!!
Bussed home after that and for the first time,i felt that 168 is just like home.
I was eating crackers and drinking while watching TV.
Haha.
Never felt so relaxed in the bus before.
Kk now i wanna bathe and chiong my PP poster!
Nitessssssssss.

Thursday, October 23, 2008

** Finally!!! **

1:59 PM

I woke up just in time for school.

Guess i was still feeling very sleepy when i was in the bus

Till i missed one stop,that bad siah.

Lucky the 39 havent reach the interchange yet.

And when i woke up,i got a challenge from Ayu.

We were supposed to race to school and see who reaches first.

The person who lost will have to buy redbull for the winner.

Haha.

That was seriously fun.

I was praying for the buses to come first,and yes they did!

Fuhhh!!! I nearly lost to her when i got to know that she's already at the school's traffic light.

So i ran down the bridge as quickly as i can and smiled hard at her.

Hehe.

AYUKI!!!! i won=D

And class was quite okay for today.

I can really work with Jessie man.

She's like freaking helpful and smart.

Thanks to her i understand the things that i dont.

While waiting for our turn to present...

Really boring and dry.
And so i wanted to take another picture when Faaiz just swinged my hair to the front,and here's my beautifully taken pic.

Annoying eh Faaiz?

So after school,we went to take a look at the PP Gallery. I really need to work on it real fast.
So i was helping Faaiz out,and look at what Ayu is doing.

That naughty lil girl in pink sandals was lying down happily.

Ayu ayu..

Then we met Cugan and frens and we played that game.

We then head off to the coffeeshop and eat.
Then i followed Faaiz & Cugan to AMK.

After Cugan's gf left,we went to a coffeeshop cos they wanted to smoke.
And yes,they were playing the 'stick' game.
I joined them later on.
Missing the old times huh.