Why can't i stay in love throughout?Why is there always a breakdown,a moment that i won't feel anything towards my own partner?Why am i feeling that i'm forced to blurt certain words just to care for his heart?Just what is happening in me?It's not once or twice.Moodless....Guess i have a serious problem.There's issues fighting in me and i refused to address them cos it seems complicated when i don't know the cause of it.I'm just sensitive to stuff,yes.But what are they?If i'd knew,i could have avoided them and protect myself from going through this shit every now and then.Shitty!
Thursday, April 29, 2010
"i was just thinking,are you sure that you chose the right person to be with,knowing that if anything goes wrong,you'd regret that you've wasted so much time in me when you could have proceed on with somebody else?"********************************************************************"if we had known who is the rite one for us it will be a smooth sailing and wonderful life aheead for us.. but even w/o knowing if we have a very strong love and faith that the person is the one for us, be it the rite one or not we will still choose to be wif the person till d end of our lifetime.. and that person happens to be my lovely Sabira Jalal!"************************************************************
"so u ready to spend the rest of ur life wif me sweetheart?"****************************************
"i love u deeply sweetheart!!!"-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.K guys get ready!I'm getting married!Wakakakakakakakakakkaa!! Right!it's just self-typed sentences.Now give me the face!-____________________-Early in the morning siao already!
Wednesday, April 28, 2010
I'm still contemplating of when is the right time i'm gonna quit from this current job.I'm just looking for a different environment.But i'm already comfortable here.So how how how lah?!!:(
Tuesday, April 27, 2010
I had a late night date out with Mr.He loves going to drive-throughs.And we'll sit in the car,me camwhoring,and him smoking,while listening to his huge collection of bhangra songs.There were moments when we can't control our shoulders anymore,that we felt like escaping from the car and just dance in the space.Hahaha!And then we settled on practising on songs that we're gonna be singing together in May.His family's function that is.And he still got the cheek to say,"You'll be my female singer."EXCUSE ME MR!!If it's not me then i'll sulk for a year definitely!:P*no pictures*We only had one anyways.Hahhaa laugh at us ah!You nabeis!
Monday, April 26, 2010
"The happiest moment in my life have yet to come. I wanna wake up in your arms,slip a quick kiss on your forehead and to make you breakfast:) "
Sunday, April 25, 2010
My body's aching all over thanks to the strenous game session yesterday.I saw a bruise on my left arm.Oh yeah i didn't tell you guys the number of times i fell on the disgusting yucky grass patch.Ok nevermind,it's just slippery and i regretted trying to run.And now i felt like every part of my body is loosening up.It's a boring Sunday anws.Didn't go out cos dad will be all alone at home.So yeah,kept him company.:)
Saturday, April 24, 2010
I had an awesome day out,despite not going to work today:)Secondary school friends meet-up session,with Captain's Ball game on the roll.We were all sweaty and dirty and wet cos it was raining earlier and we had to play on the grasses.But it was really totally fun.Relived the moments we had back then,together.After the games,me,Kimek,Su and Lina head over to White Sands to chill out.Here are some pics.
This is Suriana:)
Lina and Ain Kimek
Su again:)
The Jambu one!
And the crazy one!!Heee now im off to meet Mr.Love for awhile.Byebye!!
Friday, April 23, 2010
It's Friday:)And i've got no inkling of what to say.Enjoy your weekends all!
Thursday, April 22, 2010
Yeah i know my posts had been boring for the past few days.What to do...Working people are just like this.I'm not feeling tired or whatsoever,but you know sometimes i can't be bothered to blog,which means that i'm definitely losing the hang of it.Tomorrow's Friday,and i chose to do OT on both Saturday and Sunday.I can hear $$$ coming in baby!Isn't it awesome to earn money on your own?Not that i have things to buy in mind.I'm sooo boring!Cos i'm just not addicted/attracted to shopping.But it's a good thing afterall:)No splurging of my hard-earned money!
Wednesday, April 21, 2010
It seems like there's a bunch of people whom i know,who are working at Flextronics too.I was shock to see Ayu the cat there.But she's under office,so yeah.Anws,nice meeting you cat.:D
Tuesday, April 20, 2010
And my neighbour foundWHITEY!!:DThank God nothing happened to them.I'm truly grateful and happy that they're back with us now.Resulting in having a messy house is an exception though.Bottomline is,i'm elated!!
Monday, April 19, 2010
And Dad found
BLACKEY!!
:D
Sunday, April 18, 2010
Both my kittens went missing around 1am last night.I'm feeling damn sad over their lost.I don't think they'd wander off anywhere,some ugly neighbour abducted them away from us.Now it feels like there's no more life in my house.It's just the same when Mum left all of us.Damn this is so sick.I ran down twice at 2am when i thought i saw Blacky,but it was another cat.God,do send them back here with us.Even aba is looking for them:(But if they weren't meant to be with us again,then please let them be treated well by their new owner.Omg,i really miss them like mad.I'm gonna miss you two running around the house.I'm gonna miss you two trying to cling on my prayer suit when i'm praying.I'll be missing hearing your soft mews when we get home or wake up from sleep.I'm gonna miss feeling you guys falling asleep on my lap.I'm gonna miss you two trying to find a comfortable spot near us before getting to sleep.I'm gonna miss you two suckling on your paws before you get to sleep,i'll miss seeing all that.
Miss you Blackey and Whitey:'(
Saturday, April 17, 2010
What went wrong?They died one by one.Mummy died on Thursday,Chubby died on Friday and Chubby's bro died today.
I'm so gonna miss you all.Sorry for not being able to give you guys a proper burial,cos the weather is inappropriate.Will always remember you guys running around the room whenever you can,escaping from your big bungalow house.I'll miss hearing your squeaks.Now i'm left with only 3 hamsters.Just what went wrong?
Friday, April 16, 2010
When day comes,all i do is,hit the sack.Hit the sack,Hit the sack,Hit the sack,Hit the sack!!And after waking up,i still think of hitting the sack,again.Yet Mr thinks that i'm deprived of adequate rest.Chill ah! I've got the weekends baby!:D1 last day to a long weekend!WOOOOHOOO!
Thursday, April 15, 2010
I'm sorry Aba,that i'm still adapting to my new working hours.I'm sorry Aba,that the house is now not as well-kept as before.I'm sorry Aba,i slept on you while you did the dishes and cook for us.You don't deserve this from all of us.Really.We'll be better children to you.Promise...:'(
Wednesday, April 14, 2010
I just freaking woke up at 4pm just now.And i'm going back to work at 7pm later!So i was chatting with my msn sweetheart...
Me: but it's like a totally wasted day ain't it? i only have life for less than 3 hours
Mr says:awwww...dont say dat sweetie...
sings*
u light my life. u give me hope, to carry on..ERRNOYING!!!-____-
Tuesday, April 13, 2010
Good news good news!!Work starts at 11pm for me today.Which means i've extra 4 hours of rest and less 4 hours of work.Ya ya yippee yippe ya ya ya!!I've a hell of a time at home now with my kitties,and accompanying my msn sweetheart.Here are some shots.
Kya style hai!
My lil bro:)
Haha lazy boy!
The sexxaye sister!
Awww she's got lovely eyes.
Due to the camera's flash.
My naughty jaan:)Anyways,my bestfriend,Nazi is back in Australia now.I hope she's gonna be fine,and i guess the next time i'm seeing her will be in November.Gosh i wonder what i'll be working as during that period of time man.
Be safe Laleh,love you!
Monday, April 12, 2010
Hey guys,i'm back from day 2 at work.I already had my 7 hours rest.And i'm up to do some cleaning in the house.It's gonna be a tough week for me.5 more night shifts for this week,to a long weekend.I'm so looking forward to that.:DBE POSITIVE SABBY!
Sunday, April 11, 2010
To one of my lovelies,you know who you are.Thanks for the sudden treat just now:)I know you'll be fine.Things happened,this period will stride over i hope.You know you've got us,so don't sad sad okay.*OKAII:D
Saturday, April 10, 2010
My first 12hour shift was crazy.I regretted,but i kinda looking forward to another day to challenge myself.I fell into a deep sleep once i got home.I was tired but the aches are not there for long.:DMr is so lovely to keep me company at my every little break.Awwww much.Very supportive and motivating lor! Yipppeee!!k gtg for bbq now,bye!
Friday, April 09, 2010
:P :P :P
It's 4 more hours to my very first time working night shift!And i'm still here on the laptop after karaoke-ing my ass off.Did a little birthday video for Muni and now i'm waiting for it to SLOWLY upload on fb.And and and i can't wait for work to start!!Damn i must be mad.P.s: just to share,i had a lovely time last night. Thank you Mr. You're definitely the best! Hope you're not really upset with my decision,but as long as the love is there,we'll do fine. Insyaallah:)
K now i wanna pray and go to sleep.Nights all!
(Now do try to adjust yourself to my life. Night is day for me and vice versa)
Thursday, April 08, 2010
Okay,it's not suppose to sound that sad,but hell yeah,i'm definitely gonna miss the place.Switching jobs for a better deal of pay,better deal of working hours is definitely worth it.But starting work at a new place will make me start all the way back from scratch.Gotta remember new people,new duties and whatnots.As i worked my ass off on my last day just now,i realised the strong bond i have created with the people there.Stepping into the basement as early as possible with a smile and exchanging hi's and smiles to the people there,i'm definitely gonna miss it.Along the way,few short crushes will be forgotten.HAHAHA!!!He's so gonna get mad if he sees this.:DBut serve him right for motivating me with this statement:"Hope this job's not infested with mats and cause further damage to you"Can't you say something nicer,MR!Anyways,goodbye Singpost,and helloFlextronics.
Wednesday, April 07, 2010
Graduation gown - checked.Invitation cards - checked.Hahaha ok i'm not proud of myself now.I don't even freaking know who's coming to my graduation ceremony.-___________-Anyways,i'm so happy to meet my lovelies,which includes my crazy friend,Qaiyum.Had an awesome short time together,finally!Then head over to Muni's place for dinner with her and Nazi,and off to Bukit Panjang for a crazy night together.Whatever happened there is just too hilarious and mysterious at the same time.So i'm gonna skip that part and keep it to ourselves.Now i'm feeling dead tired to the max,and i would like to apologise to Mr for the lack of meet-ups.:(I find it hard to adjust now,hope everything's gonna be smooth soon.Pray for me guys,thanks.
Tuesday, April 06, 2010
I've totally no idea where i'm heading to in life.I do jobs that are so random,not related to anything i'd studied.But at the same time,i'm really happy with the days that i'm leading.Going to work with a smile on my face,every single day.And now i'm breaking a piece of news which got me really excited today.Told ya i'm gonna job-hop once i graduated,but it's happening already.This Friday's exactly a month since i've been working at SingPost,and i've gt myself another job,with my sister.It feels so good that i have a companion to go and come back from work with.Have breaks together and talk about stuffs just like we did before going off to bed every night.Isn't it awesome?Well i think it is:)
Monday, April 05, 2010
Pretty much,i'm just missing my lovelies today.Browsing through facebook,looking at the funny video of digging holes back there in Bintan,awww man,how much i missed all of that.Catching up session soon!! :D
C-A-N-T--W-A-I-T!!!
Sunday, April 04, 2010
Dad cooked Chicken Rice today.It was supposed to be a family lunch.But yeah,some people aren't that happy with someone,so it's not a complete family afterall.
Pretty sad that i've broken family ties on both sides.There's no such thing as closing one eye and think that my family is not part of the one being ostracized.Shit happened.Blood is thicker than water?Nah,this don't apply in this new era.Don't be surprise if one day,you're left with only a few family members sharing the same plate of chicken.:(
Saturday, April 03, 2010
It was damn impromptu lah.I came back from my dental appointment which made my teeth ached like mad:(,and decided with sis that we should have a picnic today.So she called Dad up about our plans so that we can get the car.And we brought our kitties along:D
Hahahaha my mat-kitty.
All happy eventhough it was damn cold there,with the slight rain here and there.
And the kitties were'nt enjoying themselves,they were always curled up on our laps,sleeping away.-_____-
Here's our lovely land-boat.
And then it started to drizzle and i was their hero:)
Pretty much a decent day.Enjoyed myself alil but was tired by the time i reached home.It seems like my energy level is pretty much weak these few days.Let's boost it up baby!
Friday, April 02, 2010
Nobody from the workplace called me up,so i'm safe today.It's shopping @ JB day today.It feels good eventhough i was having those sudden headache attacks in the car.I realised something while walking in the mall.Something that scares the shit out of me,and no,i'm not telling.Goodnight!
Thursday, April 01, 2010
Hey all.I've been well,but this nauseous feeling can struck me anytime and anywhere.So i kinda dislike it.At the same time,Mr is pretty caught up at his workplace's gym.Once he's out,he'll be with his never-ending complains of getting aches here and there.Hahaah he never fail to amuse me with his antics every single day.He thought of meeting up tonight,but he had the cheek to say,"I can't even turn my body,then how to kiss you? So,no point!'HAHAAHHAHAHA!!!Super annoying lah.Alright alright,good news.I'll be introducing him to you guys soon.[not a promise though:p]Now i'm getting dizzy,i'm turning in early tonight.*Crosses fingers*Pssst...don't laugh at me,but i assume that there's no work tomorrow.=DLa La La!
